byebye baby, baby good-bye

and I'm off.
It's an incredible feeling that I am finally heading out. I am still in shock. I am finally going to be working toward the Dream.

well, abracadabra homes.
see you on the other side of the world...

3 days 23 hours 18 minutes 14 seconds

and i am nowhere near ready to go.

get in the Know.

I'd like to point out this interesting fact.
Georgia is 8th in highest HIV/AIDS infections in the country.
It is also one of the lowest in numbers of tests according to the Health Department.

and testing is free.




Please - wherever you are - get tested. You'll feel better knowing, I promise.

get in the Know.

I'd like to point out this interesting fact.
Georgia is 8th in highest HIV/AIDS infections in the country.
It is also one of the lowest in numbers of tests according to the Health Department.

and testing is free.




Please - wherever you are - get tested. You'll feel better knowing, I promise.

You rock, Rock.

these people makes my life look lame.

7 days. 18 hours. 34 minutes. 10 seconds.
and i will be flying.

it goes on without you.

LTR is this weekend for GT.
and I am not going. and that fact is killing me.
I am so worried about not having any influence on the LC this summer while I am gone (12 days!), and not that I don't trust everyone who will be working - I just am wondering if I will recognize it when I come home. I have put so much into this LC, I don't want to leave it alone - but I know going on an exchange will help the LC as much as it will help me. And the people staying in the states will be amazing, I know.
I don't know what to do about this unsettling feeling I have.

Driving Doldrums!

In the winding mountains of Tennessee with him in my hands, I listen on the radio of some woman droning on about the American craving to return to the spirit of exploration. The spirit of the Road. And baby, ain't that the truth. "...I suddenly saw the whole country like an oyster for us to open; and the pearl was there, the pearl was there."

"'Sure baby, mañana.' It was always mañana. For the next week that was all I heard - mañana, a lovely word that probably means heaven."

Well snap your fingers, light a cigarette, and call me Marylou. I'll cross this country with or without you.

would you believe me if i told you?

if you only knew how much.
but i don't think you would believe me.
please keep inspiring me.
it's everything i need right now.

official looking forms scare me.

So school is over. My first year at Georgia Tech, finished. It's a surreal feeling, and I have never felt so old.
Want to know what else is surreal? I am leaving for India in a few weeks.
I have been looking at flights, travel information, and things like that all day. I think it is finally hitting me that I am actually going. And it is a little scary that I am not completely prepared. I mean - there's not much I can do but buy plane tickets, get some stuff together, and fill out official paperwork - which I have decided that I am terrified of... I mean it's not an irrational, debilitating, impossible fear - but it is just so scary looking.
But anyway - back to India prepping. I don't know where to go from here. I am sending off my visa application tomorrow, hopefully buying plane tickets tonight (after five hours of searching and comparing prices), and getting some organization for stuff to bring. I probably should just sit down and make a list.
Sorry I am so distracted - this is all a little overwhelming.

oh.my.god.

in 4 weeks, i will be working in India.
that is so incredible - it's still a little hard to believe.
and i have been talking to Mohammed all morning - and it's getting more and more exciting.
new development for my nomading: Nepal. how incredible would that be.


talk about a sweet summer vacation.

if i could sing it i'd sing it for you.

The flowers you gave me are rotting and still I refuse to throw them away.
Some of the bulbs never opened quite fully
They might so i'm waiting and staying awake.
Things I have loved i'm allowed to keep
I'll never know if I go to sleep.
The papers around me are piling and twisting regina the paper back mummy
what then.
I'm taking the knife to the books that I own and chopping and chopping and boiling soup from stone.
Things I have loved i'm allowed to keep.
I'll never know if I go to sleep.
Things I have loved i'm allowed to keep.
I'll never know if I go to sleep.

-The Flowers-
-- Regina Spektor --

finals make my life sad.

yeah, the title pretty much says it all.

choices choices

i have been thinking about the decisions i will have to make this year. actually they have been in my thoughts for the past few weeks. they're big - and i am not sure what my choices will be. it's kind of scary, actually.
before AIESEC, i had a definite plan for my life. my job was decided, where i would live, when i would graduate, what i would do, who i would look for. i had them all planned down to the year. my entire life was laid out before me - no distractions, no side routes. all i had to do was follow it.
but now. now, i don't have that plan anymore. there are all these things that i want to do - that i want to see before i graduate, or start in the real world, or get married (yeesh - marriage is a scary to me).
i realized that planning it out didn't leave enough room for me to grow. i didn't expect a lot of things coming at me, but they did - and i have changed because of them. actually, a lot of unexpecteds were thrown my way. my plan just didn't deal with that. so it is scary, yes, but so incredible and liberating at the same time. i have the opportunity to do whatever i want, i just need to make a choice. the problem? too many opportunities. where do i go from here? this year is still new, i can still make resolutions.
so - inspired by this, i started thinking about this year and where i want to be at the end of it. here goes.

- be amazed by india. be impacted. come home changed. pass on the impact.
- really focus on school. be an active student. study more. keep HOPE.
- make the decision by october 1st. yes or no.
- be a mentor.
- have seen 10 countries. (on the list right now - USA, Canada, Mexico, Dominican Republic, France, Italy, Spain, Morocco. soon to be - India, ???)
- be proud of the past year and what i have done with it.
- be ready to take on anything in 2008.

bring it on, 2007. i'm ready.