des rêves...

P. S. R.
Parallel Synchronized Randomness. An interesting brain rarity and our subject for today. Two people walk in opposite directions at the same time and then they make the same decision at the same time. Then they correct it, and then they correct it, and then they correct it, and then they correct it, and then they correct it. Basically, in a mathematical world these two little guys will stay looped for the end of time.

The brain is the most complex thing in the universe and it's right behind the nose.


fascinating!


j'aime les filmes français.

la musica...

I am in the need of new music. Not just random, boring, everyone else has it music. But real, amazing, moment-making music.

like in the perks of being a wallflower. a song that makes you feel infinite.

and a book that i can read over spring break. i know i will be out doing amazing things, but i need a book that i can read on the flight. one that makes you think, and makes you want to look at the world differently.

i'm asking for suggestions.

oh man... you don't even know....

i'm going to morocco.

be excited.

ready to RoKS it!

i am so ready for RoKS. I actually found out today that I will be Faci for 3, maybe 4 sessions. and its a really cool feeling.

but different news. beyond my love of AIESEC for once.
it was such a gorgeous day today. and i am so ready for spring. not the weather but just the general feeling. maybe i will have my life in order by then. (and then i remember how close summer is and how little i have done to get ready for that next step of my life...)

next week is march. can you believe how fast the year is passing?

Remotivation

when I found out that I was not going to Morocco for spring break, I almost started crying. my heart broke a little bit. and i lost the motivation to do anything. even AIESEC, which is a big deal for me. i mean, i'm not angry at the CC, just disappointed.

and then i trudged along to a meeting, still upset and confused and unsure what the next step was. and a comment came up in the meeting about how strange it would be if two integral members of our LC had not stayed with the organization - and how lost we would be without them.

right there was my motivation. I wanted to be that motivation and inspiration for someone else. i want to share with someone how amazing AIESEC is and have it completely change their life.

and here i am, remotivated. i still don't know where i am going from here, but i know i am at least going.


#sidenote: i bought my first suit today. i have never felt so old. and broke. but i better look good at the BOA meeting on thursday.

this is my valentine's day song.

My funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable
Unphotographable
Yet youre my favourite work of art

Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?

But dont change a hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentines day

Is your figure less than greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?

But dont you change one hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentines day

- - - - - - - - - - My Funny Valentine

i need a valentine. for real. want to be mine?

no tengo la voz.

i am officially voiceless.
i blame lack of sleep and maybe the fact that i don't take care of myself like i should.

either way, i can't talk without sounding like an effeminite mickey mouse about 2 octaves too high.

stress? what stress?

i feel like my brain is about to explode. i say that, and i realize i say that quite a bit. but, believe me when i say that it is a pertinent possibility in the next few days.
presentations, papers, tests, reviews, preparations, attempting to sleep and eat and maintain my ability to function without biting people's heads off.
it's a lot to handle. and i hate that i am complaining about it which i feel like that is all i am doing. don't get me wrong - i love all of the things i am doing and am passionate about doing the best i can for all of it - but i am worried about my ability to do the latter. i want to do so well and keep pushing myself to do well for it, but how? ideas?

i think the only way i will relax this week is to here from MENA LDS. i need to know. now. i want morocco so badly. pleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaassssssssssse, let me go!!

ok, back to banging my head against a brick wall...

Nye says "Hey AIESEC!"

"[A] form of liberalism is social. It argues that person-to-person contacts reduce conflict by promoting understanding. Such transnational contacts occur at many levels, including through students, businesspeople, and tourists. Such contacts make others seem less foreign and less hateful. That, in turn, leads to a lower likelihood of conflict."
- Joseph S. Nye, Jr.
Understanding International Conflicts: An Introduction to Theory and History

umm... i'm pretty sure someone at AI needs to cut this man a check for some free advertising....

anyway - i'm sitting here studying for my test at 9 in the morning (its about 2:45 at the moment...) and reading about the interaction capacity of international and transnational actors in the pre-modern era from a liberalist perspective, and all i can think of is how @ is infiltrating every aspect of my life, even my classes. not a complaint, by all means, but just an interesting observation. how an organization that i was forced to attend six months ago is now such a major part of my life. i know i touched on that in my last post, but it is still so incredible to me.

for real - i need to study now.

...

for some reason this decided it did not want to post until now.... stupid bloggerface.

this is the beginning.

I hate awkward introductions. You stand there, and feel that the two of you are under spotlights, holding your breath for that first impression. Exchanging names, sweaty palm handshakes, and uncomfortable silences. It is difficult to think of things to say.
The same is true for the first posting of this blog, but I will go through the motions anyway.

My name is Maddie.
I love taking walks through cities and finding things I wish I could claim as my own. Especially in Atlanta, where I live. It's beautiful here and there are so many facets to its identity as a city.
I hate the fact that I am still so young (only 19) and have seen so little. That is something that I want to change.
I love my school. Georgia Tech is exactly what I wanted in a college. It has changed my life.
I hate that I can only pick one thing to do with my life. I want to work in international affairs. I want to be a starving artist. I want to work abroad. I want to save the world. I want to be a chef. I want to build things and change people. I want a family and don't at the same time. I hate that I want so many things.
I love AIESEC. My LC is amazing. AIESECers are amazing. I can't imagine my life without it anymore, and it has only been six months since I joined. It has had that big an impact on who I am and who I plan to become.
I hate that not everyone knows about how incredible AIESEC is.
I love to listen to your stories.
I hate that I have so little to share of my own. Hopefully that will change.
I love music - it is something I can't live without. I am always searching for new artists to fall in love with.
I hate that I am so random and can't keep a logical progression of thought.


there - I have been introduced. hopefully it wasn't too awkward for you.