where do i go from here?

i feel so disillusioned.
for everything. school, friends, family, even AIESEC.

i want for anything else to be back where i was right after WSC this winter. i have never been so motivated, and its really hard to find where that came from.
i need an excuse to get genuinely excited about something. its getting harder and harder, and you don't even realize how depressing that can be.